When I started this blog in January, I simply wanted to tell the story of my cardiac arrest and the recovery. (You see, It is quite a miracle that I am here.) Little did I know that I would continue to endure health crises. It's hard to describe what I have been going through without feeling overwhelmed. I had no idea that I would be diagnosed with cancer or that I would have three surgeries in four months' time. I agree with Mother Theresa. She once said, "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." The question of why am I going through all of this has passed my lips so many times over the last half of this year. Honestly, I do not understand, and all I can think is that I'm not finished yet. There must be something I'm supposed to do.
So, here I sit at the end of 2016, remidinding myself that I really don't have a right to ask that question. Someone once said, "We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, "Why did this happen to me?" unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way." I've learned that if I am not willing to take the bad with the good, then I am really not willing to fight and push to overcome. I am a survivor and the view from my heart is that of strength and life.
You see, I have so many things for which to be thankful. I have a wonderful husband, incredible children, beautiful friends, a rewarding vocation, amazing co-workers, and a gracious God. With these people in my life, my heart is full. It is damaged physically, but it is whole spiritually. So, I'm ready to put 2016 in the past and to move on to 2017. My recovery continues; only now, I have stage 1 cancer and fewer internal organs. Howevver, I'm chosing to move forward with optimism. 2017 cannot be harder than 2016. I'm so exccited to see what the new year brings. Aren't you?!
Besides......this is my promise from the Lord:
"'For I know the planss I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prospert you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,' declares the Lord..."
Jeremiah 29: 11-13
And it goes on to say that He will bring me back from captivity...for me that is the captivity of being sick.
My Journey from death's door to the miracle of life.
Annie Dragoo is a wife, mother, actor, singer, dancer, educator, and holistic health practitioner who lives in Austin, Texas.